I've been doing it again.
Fantasizing about returning to academia.
I can take some solace from the fact that I don't want to go back to the student life (late nights, hangovers, and too much self-hatred). My craving is for the learning. It stems from a real belief that I have something new to contribute to my field of study.
This comes at a time when I've not been doing any creative writing; I've not even been blogging as regularly as I want to. In part, I put this down to January. It is undoubtedly the worst month of the year.
Having been taken down with the flu just after Christmas, I feel as though I've stumbled into 2013. Any personal resolutions I may have had weren't practical to fulfill at the start of the month, as I lay under a duvet, drugged with lemsip, watching all manner of chick flicks on lovefilm, and feeling generally sorry for myself.
I've got a solution to my craving for learning though, and one that doesn't come with a hefty price tag. I've created a reading list, and started to seek out places I can submit academic articles. I've done it once, I can do it again. I'm going to try and get another essay published this year.
Wish me luck. I have a feeling I'm going to need it.